ginaspider

A message to the white man

2008-05-15T17:29:15Z

One problem that I see with the white man is that he takes things too personally. Perhaps this stems from the individualized-selfish ideology that is taught by the television-set and in general by consumerism. The white man feels personal guilt for racism, sexism, and other discriminations and is blind to white-power-structure and the mechanics of oppression. He thinks that these discriminations are a reflection of him personally.

The most insidious manifestation of this, I feel, is the white man that feels that he can spout racist, sexist, and discriminatory jokes and comments because he himself feels not to be racist or any of these things. As if the entire problem rests on his shoulders alone, he completely ignores the structure of oppression.

I say to the white man, don't take things so personally. Instead think about how you were conditioned, how you were taught, to be discriminating and take issue with that.

ginaspider @ 2008-05-14T19:08:00

2008-05-15T06:12:31Z

Mixing techno and classical, in my experience, rarely sounds good. I really like how this was done. If anyone can identify the artist here I'd like to know, I have no idea who did this. It's very minimalist, I've been listening to it over and over again.. the end is cut off in my version too.

ginaspider @ 2008-05-14T05:37:00

2008-05-14T16:39:56Z

How far have we come?

The Sprite, the polygon and the clown-car.

2008-05-13T04:12:05Z

It's interesting how paradigms change in the console world. Fifteen-years ago or so the rendering primitive was the all-mighty and glorious sprite. Why would you want anything else? You can do lots of stuff with sprites! 3D graphics, 3D-polygonal representations of objects that are rotated and projected into the screen using 2D-polygons, started to gain popularity. It became increasingly difficult to renderer these things using sprites. People started to put special hardware in their game-cartridges to render 2D-polygons to sprites; the SuperNintedo FX-chip, VirtuaRacer and such. The 2D-polygon has become so popular that it now has become the rendering primitive. Now-a-days if you want a sprite you have render it on top of a 2D-polygon. It's completely backwards. Still the 2D-polygon gains popularity, polygons and more polygons. People started to release that rotating and projecting all these polygons, more polygons, is too taxing on the processor and memory bandwidth. The rendering paradigm, the notorious 2D-polygon moves away from the processor into specialized hardware leaving a dimensional trail behind it, it now becomes 3D. The rendering primitive now is the 3D-polygon. People started to wonder what else they can push off the processor. Lighting models and shadows cast over 3D-polygons, all these things move into specialized hardware. The rendering primitive becomes more "real". 3D graphics, traversal of a ray backwards through space from the eye to the light-source while collecting color information, has started to gain popularity. Raytracing is an old technique but if done real-time can be parallelized a lot more efficiently then polygon renderers. People are now devising techniques for drawing raytraced images to polygons, kD-tree interpolation over polygons and such. What a fun world this is. I wonder if raytracing might become the new rendering paradigm.

ginaspider @ 2008-05-11T15:36:00

2008-05-12T02:51:25Z

Well, I feel creeped the fuck out. I've heard on multiple occasions, and I just heard again, that I look like this women that use to go to muddy-waters four years ago. Nobody knows what happened to her, she just kind-of dropped off the face of the earth. I have a bloody doppelgaenger. I wonder what this person is like, I wonder were they are now.

And now for today's happy wikipedia-quote:

In September 2006 it was reported in Nature that Shahar Arzy and colleagues of the University Hospital, Geneva, Switzerland, had unexpectedly reproduced an effect strongly reminiscent of the doppelgänger phenomenon via the electromagnetic stimulation of a patient's brain. They applied focal electrical stimulation to a patient's left temporoparietal junction while she lay flat on a bed. The patient immediately felt the presence of another person in her "extrapersonal space". Other than epilepsy, for which the patient was being treated, she was psychologically fit.

Electromagnetic stimulation, YEAH!! Fun fun fun! Wont someone gimmy sum?

stone

2008-05-08T06:51:35Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b98BJ36K1wo

I've never heard anyone actually drum like this before. Fucking wicked, if you ask me.

Stone has grown to have a number of different connotations. The most common of which is probably stone, in a sexual light, meaning not wanting to be touched. I don't really like this connotation as it implies giving and receiving pleasure. Giving and receiving? What weird concepts in sex, where do these come from? I do like stone as in your person. Not moving, "I'm not going to change". Static, truthful, present. I like that connotation a lot more.

interesting

2008-05-02T18:07:49Z

gay shame

ginaspider @ 2008-05-01T16:27:00

2008-05-02T03:31:15Z

So, I'm wondering what I should get my good-friend for her birthday. I want something that really lets her know I think about her. Last year I went around with a video camera and made a collage of a bunch of random people wishing her happy birthday. I don't know what to do this year. hmm...

ginaspider @ 2008-04-30T13:09:00

2008-05-01T00:13:48Z

Today I feel very proud of my androgyny. I've taken a liking to stone-andro-faggy-boi-grrl-dyke. I want to mash-up as many words to describe me as possible. It's kinda fun. Stafoigyke for short, just rolls right off the tongue doesn't it? Stone- I like that term. I find I keep on looking at this picture:

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ginaspider @ 2008-04-30T08:07:00

2008-04-30T19:09:44Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nhNpkthJkdc

This is a neat video I found of notAcon/BlockParty. I'm in there twice.

ginaspider @ 2008-04-29T05:56:00

2008-04-29T17:06:46Z

A hit-and-run just happened outside my window. I didn't see it but I heard it. Having seen two other people get hit by cars I kinda know what they sound like. It sounded like he was hit pretty fucking hard. Debris is laying all over the place. He's laying on the ground not getting up. a number of years ago I saw this guy get hit by a car on his bicycle, he was riding a block behind me. He was thrust two-thirds across the street. It sounded like this guy was hit harder then that. The cops and a firetruck and an ambulance have arrived. People are frantically describing what happened. Fortunately for this guy there's like six witnesses. I hope they find whoever did this. Sometimes I hate cars. They have way too much power, you know. They can kill you and the people around you pretty quickly. This is part of the reason why I choose not to drive.

Surgery of The Soul

2008-04-28T04:24:03Z

Don't worry

lob.mp3

Everything will be ok

ginaspider @ 2008-04-27T10:22:00

2008-04-27T21:26:00Z

Dear lazyweb,

I don't get it. What's the difference between YUV, Y-Cr-Cb, Luma-Hue-Saturation? These all seem interchangeable to me.

Also, how is gray represented in these systems? It makes sense to me in Luma-Hue-Saturation (just have zero saturation) but how about Chroma-Red, Chroma-Blue? What the fuck is chroma-red and chroma-blue?

ginaspider @ 2008-04-26T12:56:00

2008-04-26T23:57:48Z

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ginaspider @ 2008-04-25T07:11:00

2008-04-25T18:13:46Z

I'm tired of approaching people when it comes to relationships. This is mostly because I've noticed I'm really fucking bad at it.

ginaspider @ 2008-04-25T06:07:00

2008-04-25T17:08:48Z

Now I'm not a huge fan of 'my graphics card is so big` type statements, but I think this is fucking krad

http://wiki.duskglow.com/tiki-index.php?page=OGD1

ginaspider @ 2008-04-22T17:12:00

2008-04-23T04:14:21Z

Here you are.

ginaspider @ 2008-04-22T16:04:00

2008-04-23T03:06:49Z

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This picture makes me cry. My personal experience from homelessness is that it can get pretty lonely after a while.

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My voice is my passport http://hobones.dogsoft.net/passport.mp3
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ginaspider @ 2008-04-21T21:22:00

2008-04-22T08:24:20Z

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This is bonkers. If I lay down my stomach begins to hurt after a couple of minutes. If I sit straight it's not so bad. I'm so tired right now, I just want to lay down and sleep. This is crazy. Just throw-up- come on body. Let me throw-up.

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Get my public key at http://pgp.mit.edu:11371/pks/lookup?op=get&search=0x84F69E64
My voice is my passport http://hobones.dogsoft.net/passport.mp3
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ginaspider @ 2008-04-18T16:50:00

2008-04-19T03:52:59Z

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Alas, ascii Bio. Drawn on the way to notAcon.

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ginaspider @ 2008-04-18T07:47:00

2008-04-18T18:51:06Z

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I've never felt male and I've never felt female and I don't really concern myself with gender I just let people go the way they will with it and if they're confused then I let them be confused. You know, I don't really have an answer for them. so- are you a boy or a girl? Yes! ... you know. Gender-confusion is a small price to pay for social progress. They can learn to work around gender I don't need to learn to work around them to be comfortable.

Interviewer: and you don't mind of people call you she or he?

I don't really care as long as they're being nice. As long as they're, you know, not abusing me or using he or she as derogatory them I'm fine.

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So I just got done watching the movie, "Gendernaut". I really like it and now I'm feeling very chipper. I think I'll bus to st paul and spend the rest of the day in mickey's diner.

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Get my public key at http://pgp.mit.edu:11371/pks/lookup?op=get&search=0x84F69E64
My voice is my passport http://hobones.dogsoft.net/passport.mp3
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ginaspider @ 2008-04-16T18:24:00

2008-04-17T05:26:24Z

ginaspider @ 2008-04-15T11:47:00

2008-04-15T22:49:01Z

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So I went out to eat with this woman named Anne yesterday. Tomorrow we're going to watch a movie. She seems pretty cool. In a strange way, she's pretty awesome actually. I was nervous about seeing her outside of work but we get along surprisingly well. I get no sense that she's interested in me however, so I think I'll let that issue rest for a while.

Either my compiler is producing wonked code or my disassembler is crazy. Either way I think they think it's a big joke. I've come to the conclusion that the VDP command register is fucking bonkers and have decided to put up with its weirdness instead of trying to understand it for the moment. The 68k has a lot of mixed data types and I think my compiler is set to a sub-architecture that my disassembler doesn't like, in that respect. Right now I'm in search of an emulator with a good debugger. I discovered you can run genecyst in dosbox which is pretty wicked. No debugger but it has nice pattern/palette/registers/ram dumpers. In the future I plan on running code on a real sega genesis with a nice romulator. It's very fortunate that you don't have to deal with mappers like you do with the Nintendo. I don't like emulators, you can never trust them. One of the biggest problems when I wrote my Nintendo emulator was that I'd base it off other emulators, I think this is common. You get a perverted view of that actual hardware after a while. Which is interesting in of itself but undesirable for my goals.

You ever want to make up a fake architecture on an emulator and port gcc and linux to it? I have... hmm...

I have tremendous respect for the people who originally hacked the sega genesis. There's a video on video.google.com that documents the efforts to hack the xbox. Go watch that now! It's fucking insane these people are clever as hell!

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Get my public key at http://pgp.mit.edu:11371/pks/lookup?op=get&search=0x84F69E64
My voice is my passport http://hobones.dogsoft.net/passport.mp3
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ginaspider @ 2008-04-15T03:24:00

2008-04-15T14:26:57Z

That's what I thought, asshole!

so this is my internet meme. Hopefully it makes some progress

ginaspider @ 2008-04-12T07:23:00

2008-04-12T18:25:29Z

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Dear Internet,

I never really listened to KD Lang before. Honestly I've kinda avoided it since I saw the infamous Vanity Fair cover. I heard her on the television singing songs from her new album and decided to pick up a copy. So, here I am listening to "Coming Home" over and over again. I found this picture of her, I haven't listened to the album it's from. I think it's a really cool picture though.

"I am happily indifferent to the ones who have consistently been wrong"
"and all that once confined us like minutiae at its finest now is gone"

In other news:

The Sega Genesis VDP memory interface has a lot nuances that I don't yet get. It's a weird little system. I plan on releasing a demo for it for next years block-party. I will also release a gcc environment and library for programming it. It'll be fun. CALL FOR PIXEL ARTISTS!

So, I'm reading the HID specs from usb.org. usb.org is WAY too fucking verbose! Their documentation is practically useless to me because of this. Bah!!

My friend is taking me to a party. She was a DJ on the local collage station here and the party is for a bunch of KUOM folk. I'm nervous that I won't really fit it... so I plan on bringing (and drinking) some whiskey. I hope that will loosen me up a little bit.

I'm leaving here (my apartment) at the end of the month.

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Get my public key at http://pgp.mit.edu:11371/pks/lookup?op=get&search=0x84F69E64
My voice is my passport http://hobones.dogsoft.net/passport.mp3
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